Baby Steps

I'm terribly sorry for not posting for so long. I was going to post on Valentine's Day, but didn't because I knew the whole post would have just been anger at the couple world and all the stupid things they have to do for each other. So today, I want to write a post dedicated to all those single girls out there.


The other day I had a moment with friends (a really long moment) where there was lot of talk about being comfortable in your own skin. I can't say that I'm preaching to you, because that's not at all what I'm doing. I struggle with this same thing just as much as anyone else does. In fact, I think that this is more for myself, than anyone else. Sometimes it's just easier to rehash things again just to sink in the point.

While I was hanging out with these guys we got onto the topic of conversation of my ex. I don't think I can technically call him an ex since we never actually dated. We just hung out and shared a mutual interest in each other. So anyway, enough of that. They told me that he was no good for me, and I got to feeling sorry for myself and then one of them stopped strumming at the guitar and looked up at me.

"Are you happy being single?" He asked.

It made me stop and pause. Was I? 

I should be able to say yes. That's what I want to say. But truth is, I don't think that at times I'm perfectly comfortable with being single. There are times where it's the best thing in the world because I can do whatever I want and not have to think about another person. Now I'm not saying I'm going to go out and let it all hang loose and do whatever floats my boat. No, that's not it. I'm just saying that without concern for someone else you can travel, you can enjoy things one moment at a time.

There's something though, and I know it nags at all of us (single folk), about being that one person who seems not to have anyone that cares.

False!

And that's exactly the point these guys were trying to make to me.

You always have someone there that cares for you. You're never alone. And until you're happy with just you, you can't be happy with someone else.

So, I'm making a promise to myself, that I hope all of you can do the same, that I'm going to be happy with myself. No matter how hard it may be, or how lonely I might feel. I'm going to push through because one day, I'll find the person I'm meant to be with forever.

Baby steps.